Pregnancy Journal - Sixteen Weeks

I had a whole entry typed up and ready to post. Then I read it again and decided that maybe I should just keep it in my journal. The Captain jokingly asked me the other day if there is such a thing as pre-partum depression. As my pregnancy has progressed, so had my "first trimester morning sickness" all day, every day and even sometimes waking me up at night. And while it is hard to be excited and happy and glowing when you're hugging the porcelain, I have realized that no one likes a Debbie Downer less than I do, so why should I be one?

I had a very sweet dream the other night--amidst stressful ones where I am running into problems at work or have to figure out a powerpoint issue in order to save my own life (not fun)--about this baby and caring for said baby when said baby is in my arms rather than my insides. I know in my heart of hearts that all of this will be worth it, that I'll gladly forget the low points and plateaus of pregnancy and want to do it all over again just for the chance of holding another little one in my arms and smelling that sweet, baby skin.

So instead of pouring out my heart in these things, I'll go with a more traditional method. I found this "questionnaire" online...Maybe this will help keep my ramblings in check. And yes, I snap these photos in the bathroom at work. That's where I spend most of my time these days ;).

How far along: 16 weeks

Weight gain, body changes: 2 lbs since my last appointment, 1 lb over my pre-pregnancy weight and about 4 inches around my middle. I've got quite the bump now.

Maternity clothes: Pretty much since day 1. I can't stand anything pressing on my belly.

Stretch marks: Nothing new. I've had the Mama Mio stretch mark butter and oil my whole pregnancy and have used it randomly. I just can't stand the smell of it right now.

Movement: I think I feel flutters. Every ultrasound I've had shows a very active baby, so it will be interesting once it's big enough for me to actually feel the movement.

Sleep: I have been trying to go to bed between 8 and 9pm (doesn't always happen since the Captain gets home some nights at 8:30). Not getting enough sleep stresses me out. I need a new pillow (venturing out to find one today), my neck has been hurting lately so I've been sleeping without one under my head, but a big one under or between my knees. Sleeping on my back is sometimes the most comfortable, but I do move around a lot, averaging 2-3 trips to the bathroom.

Best moment this week: Seeing the baby wave its little arm at me.

What made you cry: I did a lot of crying this week, extra emotional. Most notably, I cried after I was tempted to hug a grandmotherly looking stranger on the street. I think I just needed some maternal comfort.


Food cravings: Since I'm the most sick in the afternoon and evening, it seems like I've been throwing up either right before I leave the office, somewhere enroute home or right after I get home. After that, all I can think about eating is homemade salsa with salty corn chips. Late last week I had an intense craving for a salad wrap from the Cougar Eat at BYU with some BYU Creamery ranch.

Something you miss: Food. I miss eating good food and keeping it down. I miss the way food used to taste...and water. And yoga. My queasy stomach barely lets me make the walk to and from the subway for work.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Life, haha! I'm still nauseated all the time. Trying without Zofran today though and I feel the same as I usually do. I'd love to get off the meds.

How's your mood: Somber a lot of the time with brief moments of excitement, peace and/or comfort.

Any surprises? Getting sicker. I didn't know that was possible.