I recently finished another book that I really liked. Very well written and insightful, however fictional it is supposed to be. The author's moral, under the guise of the heroine, has really stuck with me and I've wanted to analyze its parts, much like a sommeliers would do with a good red wine (not that I have any experience with that whatsoever...just love the imagery of soaking in the fragrance of a thing, allowing it to rest on your tongue while being quiet enough to notice all the ingredients and essences that make it complete).

Forgiveness. The frail beauty of the word takes root in me....I'll hold on to that fragile slice of hope and keep it close, remembering that in each of us lie good and bad, light and dark, art and pain, choice and regret, cruelty and sacrifice. We're each of us our own chiaroscuro, our own bit of illusion fighting to emerge into something solid, something real. We've got to forgive ourselves for that. I must remember to forgive myself. Because there's an awful lot of gray to work with. No one can live in the light all of the time. ~Gemma Doyle, A Great and Terrible Beauty

I am loving the thought that we are complex and it's okay! Cut yourself some slack for the dark moments, because they are part of the plan! Having trials/tribulation just isn't an option, they are essential and there's no getting around them. If we want to experience eternal joy, exaltation if you will, we must experience the opposite. In the poetic words of Dido, ...pain's the only way to happiness. AND it's okay! In regards to the above quote, I'm not sure if dark and light are necessarily internal, as in a part of my being, but I definitely believe that without the dark moments, we could not distinguish the light. Not that we are cruel or sacrificing--though both are essential to the juxtaposition of what we want beside what we don't want--but we can choose to participate in cruelty or compassion.

To connect my somewhat choppy thoughts: remember that part of the classic Meg Ryan film, French Kiss where Luke has Kate taste some wine then smell some wild mushroom, lavendar, etc., and then close her eyes and taste the wine again? The second time she can recognize the essence that surrounded the vine of the wine's origin, pointing out the flavor beyond the expected. What does this have to do with forgiveness? Like wine ;) I believe we are complex, layered, multi-storied. It's through getting down to the raw essence--beyond the expected or the apparent--that we can really understand ourselves and each other, then that we can see how many amazing options and possibilities we have right at our fingertips. When we realize that WE have possibilities, that our identity isn't just what you see on the surface, it opens up space for compassion towards others. Hence, creating room for forgiveness for ourselves and others.

Christ said, I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing. How easily I forget that though I may be producing the grapes, I am only a branch on the vine. The True Vine, the source of life, my connection to the earth and all the essences that make up what is ME, is the Savior. Without Him, we are nothing. How quickly does He forgive? I believe it's immediate--as soon as we ask and He has commanded that we forgive all people. And that, my friends, includes ourselves.


Kit said...

ummm. So true. So thoughtful.

I am finding that an understanding of the Great Plan, that Christ is The Lamb Slain Before the Foundation of the World, enables me to more readily forgive. He knew we would make mistakes before we ever came to this sphere; planned on it, atoned in that one eternal now, (before? or during? or even maybe immediately after? ) we did our most current mistake, and it doesn't really matter to him how long it takes me to recognize it, and turn from it. What matters is just that I do; and He is ready; just waiting, His arms "outstretched still."

The only one getting scuffed up is me, while I wait and linger in that place of irritability, victimization, or hurt.

The sooner I can catch myself and turn the negative emotion over to Him, to heal it, the sooner I am back in love and light, back in faith and trust, and back in Happiness.

Because it is a great plan of Happiness. We are the ones who create the misery by our not being ready yet to acknowledge it is okay for us to have failed, or for others to fail; and that the healing is already in place, just for the asking.

The complexity of the human spirit is actually fascinating; once you take "taking things personally" out of the equation. (Which you can do when you just turn things over to His Healing.)

How wonderful, really, that we have relationships where we do get hurt and need to forgive, to allow our old childhood wounds to trigger and come up so we can face them, and heal them, through taking our "stuff" to the Savior.

In that case, from that paradigm, those who hurt us our really our greatest eternal friends, who are assisting us with the toughest curriculum of all, which is forgiveness.

em + russ said...

no, i don't care at all-- in fact it will look much better on you anyway. my hair is not as fabulously thick as yours. i will still do it though.

DESTINY said...

So sad you couldn't make it. Let's get together soon! hope you had fun at the concert!